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I was bound and didn't even know it, that is until life volcanos erupted and I had to face what God opened my eyes to see, even while deep in sin. 

 I thought I was a Christian friends, but according to Jesus' standards, I was a "Lord, Lord!" I'm talking if I died where I was, He would have said I never knew you.  I'm grateful that he gave me the opportunity to be drawn and reconciled back to Him.  I'm grateful for His grace.  Friends, my walk has been raggedy, difficult and challenging. But I am here. I realize that being a disciple is not about me... it is about seeking to be more like Christ. 

I was graced with the opportunity to be a new creature in Christ.  Yes...  all things passed away and all things made new in Him!!! ( 2 Corinthians 5:17)  

Although I had been in church all of my life... do you know that I realized I was never "discipled".  There were things that I didn't understand about discipleship.... there were things that were never discussed in my "church upbringing".  I was "churched", but never discipled. 

The truth is... I wasn't equipped to deal with many of the things that I was facing.  I didn't know how to navigate and was feeling empty and without tools to battle this real war that we are in as Christ followers.  

There were topics that were never covered in Sunday or even Wednesday night services.... I was ill equipped. Yes, topics that were silenced or never talked about in church: discussions about sin and what the word says about it, how to deal with real issues like difficult people, relationships, unforgiveness, what does a daily walk with Christ look like,  am I really in Christ, how do I operate in love when it's tough, is witchcraft near me and what do I do about it? What is prayer and fasting about and how do I stay faithful in doing it? How do I test the spirits? How do I engage in warfare? What does it look like and what do I do? 

Discipleship is beautiful yet rough.  Nobody tells you this.  I was needing to learn how to forgive the unforgiveable, how to navigate through witchcraft and wolves... how to walk away when it hurts, how to crucify my flesh and walk away from the sin that had me bound,  and most importantly... how to cling to the Lord and grab hold to the rock of my salvation when everything else seemed to be falling away.  The Lord led me on a rough journey.... rough baby... I mean rough! 

Like Abraham...

He told me to quit my 21 year job   and move to another state! He directed me to a new state where I knew NO ONE! I had no plan, other than to be obedient.   I began reading my word again and hearing from Him again. He told me that I was not to go back. He also told me to document the journey so that I could help walk with  other women in discipleship. 

It was here that I realized that even though I had been in church all my life I was perishing for a lack of knowledge. It was here that I learned to fight and pray, forgive the unforgiveable and  detach without looking back. 

I learned that I had such a such a fear of man. I had so many false beliefs, a real  lack of faith and little to no  trust in God. It's funny that you believe that you have trust until you are tested in the fire.  

Witchcraft in the Church?

I didn't understand the attacks, sudden swarms (in my home) of flies... dead skinned birds on my property, voodo dolls, astral projections, what in the world have I been exposed to? Friend I was at a loss. Who do I go to? Church isn't talking about this. Will a therapist be able to talk to me about the demonic attacks? It was too much! I knew the word friends, I knew Ephesians 6 and others scriptures, but the truth is, I didn't know how to use them. Oh, but I learned. I also didn't understand the occult. I was close to it... closer than I even knew.  I was close to those  who had links/allegiances to new age and secret societies.  There is nothing worse than a so called Christian who is blind quoting the word and dead in sin!  These are things that the Lord hates. The occult, new age, and my sin.  I  was smack dab in a cult and didn't know it. I wanted out. 

I was being attacked... my will, my freedom, my agency. It was abuse. I didn't understand how to break free. These attacks were continual, they were relentless. The Lord was giving me divine revelation that I hadn't had before, I could now see things in the spirit, the connections, the lies. The Lord kept showing me that it was a spiritual battle.  He also showed me that I was in sin which was giving place to the enemy. If I was serious, there were going to have to be some big changes! 

I was not fighting flesh and blood. When I said no and left, the attacks became even stronger. I had to learn what the word means when it says to RESIST. He began teaching me about  witchcraft, occult, new age in the bible and how detestable these things are to Him.  There were some ungodly things going on...I got a picture of the church enmeshed with Babylon.  

He told me to document the journey because I would be helping others, so I did. And friends, SHES DISCIPLED is a product of the Lord teaching me how to build during battle. Like David said, It was good that I was afflicted. In the crushing, he took the ashes and made them into something beautiful. He not only freed me, but used the pain for me to lift his blessed name and shout how I have been redeemed by His blood and teach others how they too can be freed. I am forever grateful!